I'm lazy...

... so I haven't been writing anything for a while. And I'm still too lazy sorry -___-' I'll try to add some photos + stories of Hanami, Desucon and Red Ribbon vocaloid meeting V when I have time...

Three weeks left....

My Riku costume is 90 % done
Kaito 90 % done too (it's missing the shoes but I'm not going to make them to Desucon.... So this costume is kinda ready)
Kain 12 % done

My desucon costumes + matryoshka Kaito

My costumes for the next Desucon are:

Riku KH 3D

Kaito

 And if I can finish this on time:

Kain Highwind Dissidia 012

 

And I should make Matryoshka Kaito for a meeting hold in Summer (and I don't know if it's before or after Desucon...) . And how much I have done those costumes so far:
Riku: 80%
Kaito: 85%
Kain: 5%
Matryoshka Kaito: 5%

I have 7 weeks to get those ready D8 Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttasfdghj. Okay, I'm sure that I can finnish Riku and both Kaitos on time but Kain... asdfasdf.......

About last meeting

Not much to report. There was only me, Miku, Tiikeri and Sardiini. We filmed the minidrama sample episode and took few photos. Oh and ate ice-cream and played dancing game. And watched a pokémon movie.

Derp

I baked some cupcakes. And ate dough.

And I feel sick. Not because of eating the dough. My head hurts...

And the thing I wanted to wrtite about:
I have a little complex about my face and body.  I just can't see myself as a pretty girl. I would make a pretty guy but not a pretty girl. I'm flat and when I'm wearing dresses I just look like a crossdressing guy. Okay and I never have been acting like a girl... If I had to been born as a girl then why couldn't I at least look like one and have big boobs? Sometimes I think I should try to dress up and act girlier but then again, when I'm doing that, I feel like I'm forcing myself to act like somebody I'm not. I wish I could learn to love myself as the way I am and not wanting to change.  I was born with this body and gender. I can't change neither of them. I used to wish that I were a guy but now I wish I could have been a proper girl. Right now, I feel like I don't have a gender at all. I can never become a guy yet I don't actually want to be a girl. But still I feel like that I can't go on forever playing a guy.  Because I know I'm not. Sorry for being an emo kid. Maybe if I had a boyfriend I would start to feel more like a girl. Or gay. But I kinda like girls a little bit more than guys.. Asd maybe I should go to sleep, I still feel sick -___-'  .

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... Da fuck I just wrote...?

Twenty years already....

....  I don't want to grow up ;^;

I think I would be able to make people think that I'm actually a boy...

 

...but I'm not.

Meeting report

We had a vocaloid meeting last Saturday. Because me and Tiitu had school that day (I'm not sure what "avoimien ovien päivä" is in English... Open doors day? Anyways...) we asked from our teacher if we could have our photoshooting in there... I'd like to share some behind the scenes photos:

Me is bad at smiling

To get this...

...we did this

We held our photoshooting in our art theory class. We  took some photos for our valentine's day video + some random photos. We had lunch and then took some more pictures.

When we had enough photos, we started to film our Promise/Get down video. I think I caught a cold because of that -___-' Almost the whole video was filmed outside. And I was wearing enough clothes BUT we had to lie on snow sadfasf.  When we had filmed all the material we needed we played some games (cardgames etc.) Miku stayed over and we played PS 1 Mulan game (it was meant for kids...) :´D Okay, mainly I played. I might post some more pictures from the meeting later...

Kaito costume is almost done!

I should cut my wig a little and paint shoes, then, it would be done~~ Next I'll be starting making Yozora. I have sewed her skirt and next I should make her jacket. I have to buy shoes for her too...  And socks. After her, I'll start making Riku... and try to make my secret costume...

Oh btw, next weekend we'll be having a vocaloid meeting again.

5 things about me

x I'm a pretty lazy person. Usually I use my time watching anime, reading manga or playing instead of making costumes or drawing
x I like nurses. FEMALE NURSES. I don't like too much seeing men in nurse dresses.
x I like coffee but I put more milk than coffee on it. I have drunk my coffee in that way since I was two. Yes, I started drinking coffee at the age of two :´D Why the heck my parents even gave coffee to me when I was that young
x I usually cosplay men because 1. my boobs are so big and stuff  (so if I'm going to cosplay a girl character I have either chose a flat chest one or steal my sister's bra and put some socks inside them...) 2. my face 3. girl characters' personalities
x I used to draw a webcomic called Nekomew. I've tried to start a new webcomic but... Me is too lazy and me's drawings are too crappy... Sorry ;^;

I just wanted to let you guys to know...

...that I finished my Kaito jacket. Next I should finish his pants and paint his shoes and then this costume would be done.

Next, I think I'll continue Yozora and start making Riku. Oh, and I have been doing a secret cosplay: (It's still a secret because I'm not sure if I'm skilled enough to make this. Btw, it's an armor costume...)

Dididididiii~~

I haven't written here for a long time (because I have used my time mainly watching One Piece and playing games...)

My Kaito costume is still unfinished and it failed a little butaaah............... Oh well... Who cares...

Anyways, I bought shoes for my Kaito costume. I also bought jeans to KH 3D Riku.

I had to take photos for my school assigment. The theme is "darkness" and we have to use a film cameras (with black and white film...). Well, I decided to take my photos at the attic and it was scary as hell. This is why one should play not too much Project zero... I hope I was able to take at least some good pictures...

Btw, I've been trying to  draw a comic. I have a few pages sketched already but it'll get some time before I get any of then ready. Sorry -__-'