And the thing I wanted to wrtite about:
I have a little complex about my face and body. I just can't see myself as a pretty girl. I would make a pretty guy but not a pretty girl. I'm flat and when I'm wearing dresses I just look like a crossdressing guy. Okay and I never have been acting like a girl... If I had to been born as a girl then why couldn't I at least look like one and have big boobs? Sometimes I think I should try to dress up and act girlier but then again, when I'm doing that, I feel like I'm forcing myself to act like somebody I'm not. I wish I could learn to love myself as the way I am and not wanting to change. I was born with this body and gender. I can't change neither of them. I used to wish that I were a guy but now I wish I could have been a proper girl. Right now, I feel like I don't have a gender at all. I can never become a guy yet I don't actually want to be a girl. But still I feel like that I can't go on forever playing a guy. Because I know I'm not. Sorry for being an emo kid. Maybe if I had a boyfriend I would start to feel more like a girl. Or gay. But I kinda like girls a little bit more than guys.. Asd maybe I should go to sleep, I still feel sick -___-' .
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